wondering

Bismillaahi,

I was wondering my self. He was too good for me, and i was so blessed that he said he did. At that moment, i felt like. . .this nothing girl is a bit precious (its a compliment to my self). And then, its said that a good man is for a good girl and vs. . . then what kind of goodness that i have so that he choosed me??

But then i got an answer. He said he wanted to delay our process at least 2 - 3 years. Yeah. . .i must keep positive. But i keep telling my self, he was trying to be a good man and gave me the most polite answer which actually means. . .a no.

I am sad. . .ya i am

both r same

Bismillaahi,

When we get the best and our besties get their worst, we feel soooo bad. N when it was them who get the best and we are the worst. . .we also feel bad. T.T

updateee

Bismillaahi,

hiiiii ^^. . warm regard for yalll !!. . .

Many random things in my head now, but i not sure can tell it well or at least make it there, stay in my head :p so i can remember it whenever i wanna write it down here.

It's already May, and again, time flies too fast that i cant stop it for a while #heavingaLongSigh. I am a year older now alhamdulillaah . .and i am not that kind of happy . Not for i don't feel grateful for the ages given to me, but just. . i wish i were frozen in an age and never getting older and older by times. In many ways, getting older is freaking me out :( . And of course, it means. . my age with B is getting further also. It might be not a big problem. . .or even not a problem at all, cause the main thing is, how we dwell in those ages not the amount of ages we have. And at the end of the day, each of our stories is goin tobe like part of dots in the oceans. . .goin to the seashores, and broken by the reefs, curving prints on the sands and rocks, then. . .pulled back to the ocean. . .and it is how its all have to be. Part of life.

moved on to next topic :p

i dont know idea what to write, i am lazy :p