am i that desperate ?

Bismillaahi,

It's ok. . .it's ok. . . all is fine. . .

almost a quarter century

Bismillaahi,

Some years ago when i was in my first year of university, i ever asked a friend. She was just turn 24 and i was wondering how it felt to be 24. She said it was just so so. And then i also asked my mom about how it felt when being 50. I also asked my Dad how to be 54. All said that they didnt think it. It was just numbers. But they are right, at last Age is only numbers. What we have done during those ages is the most important thing. 

And this April last, i will get my new age. 25. It's a mature age, isnt it ? And i questioned my self. What I have done in my life for almost 25 years.

When i was in my first year of junior high, i found a magazine with an article about some famous university names in UK. At that time, i teared the pages and saved it. It became one of my dream. I had a dream to be there and schooled there. I imagined if i sat on the senior high, i would get a scholarship or joining a student exchange and be somewhere in Europe or USA. And then i could study in one of the famous university. It was such a sweet dream at that time until i realized that i didn't do anything to make my dreams come true, and it became a real fake daydream since then. I was just following the system until now. Even in my almost a quarter century, i feel like i was just a day dreamer. No achievement that i could reach until now. 

Time flies by like a blink of eyes. I regretted all the past time i had. But life wheel always moves forward, it never looks back. So does my life. I remember these two little kitties were just about my grasp's size some months ago. And now they have been gaining weight and hard to be lifted. Life seems to to much faster for them, right. -)) But it's from our POV. .

B said that time gets shorter along with our age. When we were just one, one year feels like a year. When 10, it feels like 10 % of the feeling that we feel when we were a year old baby. and now when almost 25 life even gets so much shorter than i have felt before. No wonder that when i was in elementary, i felt like everything and every time walked so slow. And after i graduated and being in my junior, then senior, then in college, all feels like just a blink now. 25 years of living is really so fast. And the time for being like my mom and my dad's age is also so near.

I still have many dreams left, i still have many hopes, 25 years (if Allaah gives me his will). .


I hope to be a better person, to make my family happy, to make my Allaah happy,,inshaaAllaah.

Fighting !! ^^9

a listener

Bismillaahi,

People always need to be listened. Yes, not only to be heard. And it is so nice to be their listener. 

Yesterday i talked to a stranger whom i even didnt look at nor count. He said that it was so hard to find people who when we talked to, we felt good. He said, i was one of them. -) Not tobe high, no, really. As if i knew all what people wanted and wished . . .just sometimes we have to be a good listener.

Today, my mom also talked to me. While we were going to the market and felt tired, we took a seat and had a lunch. It was started after we were talking about one of our realtive who seemed to be facing a hard time with her marriage. Well, she married in a very young age (for today). And then i asked her, "Did you have that hard time also ?"

And then she started to talked about her early life. .  .Things that i have never thought before that my mom and dad would face. She told me with eyes filled with tears. I felt like wanna hug her and said a big thanks for being a strong mom and wife. For not giving up, until now. Her life and my family were so hard. And the   most impressing thing is my bro sist and i even never felt that. How much pain that they have kept all alone and still smile in front of me and my siblings. And now i know. . .

Suddenly i felt so sorry for all ive done to them..that they had been doing all the things to make this family last  until now and on.

I listen and i understand. 

My Heart Jumps !!!

Bismillaahi,


Subhanallaah, i dont have any other word to describe the beauty !! Allaah is the one who created it !!

My heart jumps >,< !! . .it is too breathtaking !! I used to think that New Zealand is the most virgin and beautiful place in earth !!! but Bosnia has flattered me . . .

trex brought me there and it was such a wonderful thing !!

I dont know how those terrible past ever happened in this Earth's part. They are too beautiful to be hurt >,<

Check this out !! and do you agree with me ? U should ! lol

 Sunset view in Sarajevo. Its wonderful !! Subhanallaah. A mountainous City is Great !!

This pic has stolen my heart ! Una River !!

Heh ? -O

Naretva River !! I can see those under water !!

I imagine Grizzelies there !! lol

Una river is wonderful !

City Park? When will we have that also lol

Yes, thats a Masjid in Old Town. I wanna go there >,<

The river. . .ohhhh >,<

I love the Snowww !!!

It reminds me of my friend Marija. She said she hates snow on her house roof ! haha. . its beautiful like a cake lol. Sorry Marija, u should live in Indonesia to tell that snow is amazing ! lol

Winter is in the City !

Wanna pray here -)

Its a river or a lake ? lol so clear water

Cold Stream

Like in Villas lol

Wanna go skiing ?? -D

Una river on winter, like in a fairy land . I see hobits there ! lol

A laaakeee soooo cleeearrr >,< !!

It is a resort, so unique !

Beautiful islands and gulf? and a rainbow for the bonus = perfect !

watermills . . .so great >,<

This is neretva river on the side of road. Really Subhanallaah !

Ok, What i learn about Bosnia is 

1. There are many masjids since at past it was part of Ottoman Caliph also -D

2. Many many rivers with clear water. Really like no garbage at all !! so virgin !

3. Many mountains also, and they are wonderful !

4. The architectures of the buildings are awesome. Like typical of old buildings in Europe. Calming !

5. I finally know that Snow there is very thick ! So i can understand you, Marija ! lol

6. I fall in love to Una and Neretva River !

7. Bosnian language is really. . .hhaha. . .i am even not sure can read it well

8. I wanna go there someday !

9. I LOVE YOU !

10. I should stop writing now cause i will not stop uploading if keep talking. lol