Stay-Miley Cyrus
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Miss you
Stay-Miley Cyrus
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Knitting my daydream in here
Stepping on thousands of memories heaven
Finding your shadow there waiting for me
Is my heart still for you?
A century seconds have passed
Never wished anymore your presence back to me
As peace as ocean calming the wave
Why do you have to come again?
A shape of emotion unites two hearts
Appearing the long time promise
Can I deny forever?
Like an ocean is my restless
I block all the coming sounds
Giving meaning to your sincerely disguised eyes
How to act
Being a masked prince from your fairy world again
As peace as ocean calming the wave
Why do you have to come again?
A shape of emotion unites two hearts
Appearing the long time promise
Can I deny forever?
Sunday, September 1, 2013
The Heart Learning
Bismillaah,
The event this day has reminded me to a story back in 2006...yes 8 years ago. That night..under the starry sky. I held up my head. Behind your back. Wishing for an unending night. Cause I knew..that time would be our last nite. A moment that I wouldn't have anymore if the dawn came up. And I would never forget too...the time when I had finally realised, this kind of story would never be on my side.
It was like a blue night for me...my unrequited love. Someone who never looked at me as a prescious story. The time when I said to my self to not easily give my heart to any man I saw.
Like today. Under the blue sky and a long long road. Behind your back. Hoping for a slow time rolling. A longer n never ending time. I felt like the moment 8 years ago came suddenly before my eyes...n successfully stole away my smiling face. Before this time, I kept reminding my self...my heart for sure...to stop, to prevent...to just being an ice mount. But I am failed. It flows like a flood. I try n try n try to make a big gate. A thick wall. But all seems to be useless. I can't stop it. I can't help falling in heart.
I cried silently. I...who watch you from a far place and from a silence...felt so hurted. Why I keep being like this many times. Why my heart never learned. Why this heart is such a stubborn head. Why?
Why I keep doing this even if I know that the end is already clear. It will always be me who be hurt.
But then I learn. This is how life touches me. This is something that I already have given up. Its a useless effort since I will always feel the same thing to different ppl with same ending again and again.
Now I've learned.
I can't always stop or prevent things like this to not be happened. I just have to receive it. I learn to live this kind of feeling. To be hurt. Cause I am a human who love to love.
In fact...it won't be long and another person will always come to replace every persons place who come to me.
This is life. There are things that can't always be fought for. And we sometimes...just have to give it up...cause it just has to...
Saturday, August 3, 2013
Saturday, July 13, 2013
Weird
Bismillaah,
Isn't it weird knowin that all the good ones near us are taken already?
I feel like so pathetic. What I can do is only keep calm and act like I am fine with the things.
There always be one left for every one too...rite? At least that's what I believe this far.
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
not my home
And finally, I turned it off.
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
mrs J
Is it a jealousy? But A jealousy for a good thing is normal and even a must...right?
Then call me a jealous girl and let me ask forgiveness from my Allah ta'ala for feeling this.
I pity my self, my weaknesses.
My Wedding Invitation wannabe
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Not My Playground
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Where it all comes from
My Own Sky.
I got this name when in a morning after a hard rain the night before, i went out to the yard. I looked up to the sky and was feeling so amazed with the view i got.
It was a bunch of clouds. The white one. Looked like a field of lambs running around peacefully. With the very bright blue sky behind it, and the cool wind blew nicely. I then started to believe that those people said the right.
To a get a beautiful rainbow, we must feel a little rain. To erase the dark, we just have to through the night till the dawn comes. To get a beautiful blue sky with the white clouds, we just have to let the heavy rain at the night before go. And because of that. I wanna have my own sky. No matter how hard things i get in my life, i always believe that it is just part of the road to the real happiness. No matter what i think or want, i just have to shout it out loud and i wont be worry about anything. How i feel, what i think...everything will be just fine. Cause here...it is my own sky. -)))
The Reflection
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
..
For some people, what i really wish to get in this life is not a worth dream. Some of them said that we just have to walk on the path and somehow it will lead us to that point. Easy to say right?
I begin to think that every failure i got this far is not because i cant. It was like i did something that i didnt really want.
Time wont wait. I see the fear on my parents eyes. In the time when they should put their fear on my future, i keep being unfaithful. What i need now is only a help. And only to Allaah ta'ala i could ask for.
Friday, March 22, 2013
Mission Accomplished !
Monday, February 18, 2013
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
almost a quarter century
B said that time gets shorter along with our age. When we were just one, one year feels like a year. When 10, it feels like 10 % of the feeling that we feel when we were a year old baby. and now when almost 25 life even gets so much shorter than i have felt before. No wonder that when i was in elementary, i felt like everything and every time walked so slow. And after i graduated and being in my junior, then senior, then in college, all feels like just a blink now. 25 years of living is really so fast. And the time for being like my mom and my dad's age is also so near.
I still have many dreams left, i still have many hopes, 25 years (if Allaah gives me his will). .
I hope to be a better person, to make my family happy, to make my Allaah happy,,inshaaAllaah.
Fighting !! ^^9
Sunday, January 6, 2013
a listener
Friday, January 4, 2013
My Heart Jumps !!!
Subhanallaah, i dont have any other word to describe the beauty !! Allaah is the one who created it !!
My heart jumps >,< !! . .it is too breathtaking !! I used to think that New Zealand is the most virgin and beautiful place in earth !!! but Bosnia has flattered me . . .
trex brought me there and it was such a wonderful thing !!
I dont know how those terrible past ever happened in this Earth's part. They are too beautiful to be hurt >,<
Check this out !! and do you agree with me ? U should ! lol