idk

Bismillaahi,

Sometimes, it is better to just keep some words of our own than hurt others feeling, even if its true. And this one. . always doesnt. . .just let all out loud.

i am trying to keep the peace, but yeah. . u start it. Ok :)

Day Dreams

Bismillaahi,

DAYDREAMS

I never notice how my heart could beat so loud when I think of you

And I can’t focus now, got my head up in the clouds when I think of you

My heart’s so lost in all the chaos it’s got me crazy

From the spell you cast, it all happened so fast to get back to loneliness

And when I close my eyes, you play like a movie in my mind

And you are the star of my daydreams,

Everything you are is my reverie

Can you feel my heart when you’re moving closer and closer?

You are the star of my daydreams,

Everything you are is my reverie

Can you feel my heart when you’re moving closer and closer?

Oh, I think that we, that we were meant to be

Everything you do’s so fresh and brand new,

That I can’t help this crush on you

I wanna be the breakthrough, kind of love to you

Sparks are flying like butterflies and I’m so high

From the spell you cast, it all happened so fast to get back to loneliness

And when I close my eyes, you play like a movie in my mind

And I worry why over and over a thousand times

You are the star of my daydreams,

Everything you are is my reverie

Can you feel my heart when you’re moving closer and closer?

And you are the star of my daydreams,

Everything you are is my reverie

Can you feel my heart when you’re moving closer and closer?

Oh, I think that we, that we were meant to be

Oh, I think that we, that we were meant to be

Oh, I think that we, that we were meant to be

You are the star of my daydreams,

Everything you are is my reverie

Can you feel my heart when you’re moving closer and closer?

You are the star of my daydreams,

Everything you are is my reverie

Can you feel my heart?

Oh, I think that we, that we were meant to be

In my daydreams

Pics from u

Bismillaahi,

Wish to have this amazing daily life with you. . .

another Failure

Bismillaahi,

Ya. . as ive thought before. . i was failed :) . I my self dont feel that kind of disappointed. But , you know. . .parents' hope is like a big stone on my shoulder that i must bear. And letting them down once again is really . . .i feel so bad. They keep supporting me, but still i can see that bad news just suddenly stole away their smiles. . even for a second. I know it :( . 

Mom. . Dad. . .dont be tired to pray, we just have tobe more patient in this tough life. I love you all as always. 

But everything happens for a reason, rite :)

And there would be my time. . sooner inshaaAllaah.

and B . . .i always wanna tell you the pain inside my heart about all the happenings in my life. But i cant. . .and i just want to keep you happy. If you are wondering, i also always say to u to think everything positively. You just have to say me that everythings gonna be ok. . .and you always do. Thank you B. . .you are one of my best thing in this world :) . Thanks for supporting me in every condition even if i cant share it with you. . .you always there. And you know. .i dont lie you, just dont tell and still let it be kept by my own . Because it is not yet be our time. You believe in Allah. . .rite ? His promises are always true. 

TOO LATE

Bismillaahi,


the bad habit of every human.  . .especially meeee .  yeaaa, rarely being ONTIME !!!!  >,< .  And i am LAAAAATEE to catch my first train !!!

And now here i am, in the train station and updating my blog. I dont feel calm now, and still thinking about the rush hours i will get in some hours next. I cant conceal if i am not afraid O.o . I do feel it. Actually for the thought that they would consider my apperiance as a bad or minuse thing . We all judge others by first look, of course, it's true. At least to give first interpretation. . .and yeah, i am surely going to have my label by that.

Here i am waiting for the next  train. Wish that i can get the best today. As B said 

 " BE POSITIVE. BE COOL" !!!

Dadaaah <3 <3

dirty hands

Bismillaahi,

Truthfully, it is so. . too scarry imagining how mean people are. And i am part of it. Every move that we make. . .have you ever worried that it might hurt others ? Them who are weaker than us. Them whose hearts beat faster when worrying, being frightened of what we could do to them. . .what moves that will hurt them. 

I am so scared

Sometimes everythings just happened like it is. Being a major, its like naturally be inside our blood. . .makes us want to win over something, to control over something. . to be the real beast. Our hands are dirty, as our hearts are too weak, to just be a good human. Bringing nothing but just happiness, cant we ?

Watching how those narrowed eyes stared our face. Saying words that we would never understand. We only know. . .we know their needs, so that we can easily control them. And them. . .cant do anything but freezing unfaithfully.

This is why we always say we are not perfect. And it is so true. . 

I just dont wanna hurt others anymore. Deep in my heart i really dont want. Just this emotions, sometimes win over me. .and us, the human. . .the best race.

Forgive me. . . . .to those whose last breaths, last light. . .slowly disappeared in front of my eyes. before my face. . . :(

are you ok ?

Bismillaahi,

B. . .are you ok there ? why i feel something is changing with you. Dont be tired B. . .dont give me up. . . . Dont :(