another Failure

Bismillaahi,

Ya. . as ive thought before. . i was failed :) . I my self dont feel that kind of disappointed. But , you know. . .parents' hope is like a big stone on my shoulder that i must bear. And letting them down once again is really . . .i feel so bad. They keep supporting me, but still i can see that bad news just suddenly stole away their smiles. . even for a second. I know it :( . 

Mom. . Dad. . .dont be tired to pray, we just have tobe more patient in this tough life. I love you all as always. 

But everything happens for a reason, rite :)

And there would be my time. . sooner inshaaAllaah.

and B . . .i always wanna tell you the pain inside my heart about all the happenings in my life. But i cant. . .and i just want to keep you happy. If you are wondering, i also always say to u to think everything positively. You just have to say me that everythings gonna be ok. . .and you always do. Thank you B. . .you are one of my best thing in this world :) . Thanks for supporting me in every condition even if i cant share it with you. . .you always there. And you know. .i dont lie you, just dont tell and still let it be kept by my own . Because it is not yet be our time. You believe in Allah. . .rite ? His promises are always true.