Mission Accomplished !

Bismillaahi,

Hollaaa folks! It's quite a bit long time that i didn't post anything here (my bad) and might be some of you wondering where i were these days ! ( Pretending like i had thousands readers! lol). Last time i posted something far from clear..lol.. it was just because i got a new phone and tried the phone browser to log in here and wrote something. But it was so difficult since this lovely blog was too heavy for my latest phone series. lol. Then just leave it and back to topic i am excitedly wanna tell you about. Here it goes....^^

It was around last year that i was so overwhelmed by the colors of some beautiful cookies and cakes. I patiently waited the chance to experience them one by one and yeah that is true...i finally got the chances. ^^

I am used to saying my self to never judge a book by its cover but as you have might guess.. those beautiful things are not really my cup of tea.

So the beautiful cakes n cookies i mean are Macaroons, Red velvet cake and Rainbow cake. Hehhee...you might have guessed them if you followed my blog update (again..pretending like had many blog fans..lol )

My first cake was rainbow cake..i experienced it three times or maybe more and no one felt like what i was thinking..yes, i had a high expectation -__-. To be honest..they were just good, but i wished to get different taste for every different layer or at least, tasted like lemon. But they were not...

So here are pics i took...

1. This is the box.. so it's a yes..i bought it in Baker's King. Kinda remind me of Korean drama's title..hhee

2. This was when i unboxed it. Sorry ive taken some bites ..lol..just a bit excited -P

3. This one is from Dika Bakery.. Usual taste..But i like their ornaments. The icing sugar was in blueberry flavor. Sweet ^^

4. This is the pic when my mom n i went to baker king again. They had the macaroon banner but hadn't launched it in the store. So i got some donuts there. But jut look behind it..hhaaa...thats a big macarooon !

5. Again..i went back to Baker King which now named as...Sofie Souffle something...hhaa..i forgot the new name already and idk why they changed the name O.o. I went there for macaroons with my sister. But then She, who treated me...asked me sweetly..lol..."Have u ever tasted the red velvet one?"..ahaaa...i just directly said..nooooo...then she changed mind and bought both red velvet and macaroons. Ahh..so lovely sistaaaa <3. 

The red velvet...if i closed my eyes and just giving score by tongue..i would think it was rainbow cake. lol. They basically had same flavors..like vanilla. Just the colors differed them..

Ok then this was the macaroons. We took the vanilla and lemon flavors. I never thought that the taste was just very familiar. Like an old biscuit we used to eat when in elementary..hhaa..

Do you recognize the biscuits above?? We call it button biscuit. (They seem to be alike with real button right? lol).. btw I took the pic from http://twitpic.com/11s48x/full

The taste exactly like that colorful things on top of the biscuits just a  lil bit more moist..hhaa...maybe for the icing was made from the same thing...egg white, and made to be like meringue. It was just my self who was wrong cause i thought with the addition of almond flour would make a big difference,,but it was not that much big ..lol

So..those were my experienced with the things i was always curious about -P. Maybe i would give another go with them,,idk still..lol..just i never stop giving another chance to try new things ^^

_missionaccomplished_

ours

Bismillaahi, it is  hard. i am trying to post a writing to this blog O.o

am i that desperate ?

Bismillaahi,

It's ok. . .it's ok. . . all is fine. . .

almost a quarter century

Bismillaahi,

Some years ago when i was in my first year of university, i ever asked a friend. She was just turn 24 and i was wondering how it felt to be 24. She said it was just so so. And then i also asked my mom about how it felt when being 50. I also asked my Dad how to be 54. All said that they didnt think it. It was just numbers. But they are right, at last Age is only numbers. What we have done during those ages is the most important thing. 

And this April last, i will get my new age. 25. It's a mature age, isnt it ? And i questioned my self. What I have done in my life for almost 25 years.

When i was in my first year of junior high, i found a magazine with an article about some famous university names in UK. At that time, i teared the pages and saved it. It became one of my dream. I had a dream to be there and schooled there. I imagined if i sat on the senior high, i would get a scholarship or joining a student exchange and be somewhere in Europe or USA. And then i could study in one of the famous university. It was such a sweet dream at that time until i realized that i didn't do anything to make my dreams come true, and it became a real fake daydream since then. I was just following the system until now. Even in my almost a quarter century, i feel like i was just a day dreamer. No achievement that i could reach until now. 

Time flies by like a blink of eyes. I regretted all the past time i had. But life wheel always moves forward, it never looks back. So does my life. I remember these two little kitties were just about my grasp's size some months ago. And now they have been gaining weight and hard to be lifted. Life seems to to much faster for them, right. -)) But it's from our POV. .

B said that time gets shorter along with our age. When we were just one, one year feels like a year. When 10, it feels like 10 % of the feeling that we feel when we were a year old baby. and now when almost 25 life even gets so much shorter than i have felt before. No wonder that when i was in elementary, i felt like everything and every time walked so slow. And after i graduated and being in my junior, then senior, then in college, all feels like just a blink now. 25 years of living is really so fast. And the time for being like my mom and my dad's age is also so near.

I still have many dreams left, i still have many hopes, 25 years (if Allaah gives me his will). .


I hope to be a better person, to make my family happy, to make my Allaah happy,,inshaaAllaah.

Fighting !! ^^9

a listener

Bismillaahi,

People always need to be listened. Yes, not only to be heard. And it is so nice to be their listener. 

Yesterday i talked to a stranger whom i even didnt look at nor count. He said that it was so hard to find people who when we talked to, we felt good. He said, i was one of them. -) Not tobe high, no, really. As if i knew all what people wanted and wished . . .just sometimes we have to be a good listener.

Today, my mom also talked to me. While we were going to the market and felt tired, we took a seat and had a lunch. It was started after we were talking about one of our realtive who seemed to be facing a hard time with her marriage. Well, she married in a very young age (for today). And then i asked her, "Did you have that hard time also ?"

And then she started to talked about her early life. .  .Things that i have never thought before that my mom and dad would face. She told me with eyes filled with tears. I felt like wanna hug her and said a big thanks for being a strong mom and wife. For not giving up, until now. Her life and my family were so hard. And the   most impressing thing is my bro sist and i even never felt that. How much pain that they have kept all alone and still smile in front of me and my siblings. And now i know. . .

Suddenly i felt so sorry for all ive done to them..that they had been doing all the things to make this family last  until now and on.

I listen and i understand. 

My Heart Jumps !!!

Bismillaahi,


Subhanallaah, i dont have any other word to describe the beauty !! Allaah is the one who created it !!

My heart jumps >,< !! . .it is too breathtaking !! I used to think that New Zealand is the most virgin and beautiful place in earth !!! but Bosnia has flattered me . . .

trex brought me there and it was such a wonderful thing !!

I dont know how those terrible past ever happened in this Earth's part. They are too beautiful to be hurt >,<

Check this out !! and do you agree with me ? U should ! lol

 Sunset view in Sarajevo. Its wonderful !! Subhanallaah. A mountainous City is Great !!

This pic has stolen my heart ! Una River !!

Heh ? -O

Naretva River !! I can see those under water !!

I imagine Grizzelies there !! lol

Una river is wonderful !

City Park? When will we have that also lol

Yes, thats a Masjid in Old Town. I wanna go there >,<

The river. . .ohhhh >,<

I love the Snowww !!!

It reminds me of my friend Marija. She said she hates snow on her house roof ! haha. . its beautiful like a cake lol. Sorry Marija, u should live in Indonesia to tell that snow is amazing ! lol

Winter is in the City !

Wanna pray here -)

Its a river or a lake ? lol so clear water

Cold Stream

Like in Villas lol

Wanna go skiing ?? -D

Una river on winter, like in a fairy land . I see hobits there ! lol

A laaakeee soooo cleeearrr >,< !!

It is a resort, so unique !

Beautiful islands and gulf? and a rainbow for the bonus = perfect !

watermills . . .so great >,<

This is neretva river on the side of road. Really Subhanallaah !

Ok, What i learn about Bosnia is 

1. There are many masjids since at past it was part of Ottoman Caliph also -D

2. Many many rivers with clear water. Really like no garbage at all !! so virgin !

3. Many mountains also, and they are wonderful !

4. The architectures of the buildings are awesome. Like typical of old buildings in Europe. Calming !

5. I finally know that Snow there is very thick ! So i can understand you, Marija ! lol

6. I fall in love to Una and Neretva River !

7. Bosnian language is really. . .hhaha. . .i am even not sure can read it well

8. I wanna go there someday !

9. I LOVE YOU !

10. I should stop writing now cause i will not stop uploading if keep talking. lol

You are so Huuuuuu

Bismillaahi,

Sometimes I just wanna write. I turn on my laptop and start to write. But it is even not something that I could say as a good writing. All is about complains. I cant complain in my real life, verbally, so, writing is my best media to do it.

This time, I wanna complain about people. (as usual). Many of them are frustrated by their future luck. They forget if I am in front of them. Why do they pity their lives in fact it should be me who have to be pitied. They all have something to be offered. They can get what they want. But me ? It was like they were trying to hurt my dignity, slow but hard. 

Nobody knew but me. Ive opened hundreds even thousands. Ive got dozens rejection. One that could receive me is not in a right time. One who said yes said that he didn’t intentionally said yes. One who said yes went away like a wind blows. One who I though had a chance said I wasn’t real. One who I wished forever said I wasn’t in the list.

So what do you think about it? Do you still feel the worst, the most terrible person, the most hurt ? What about me ? Hundred times i sing those songs just to cheer my own life. When i cheer you up, actually i was talking to my self. But i dont feel as the worst, because there are many who are worse than me.

(My english is so terrible in this post and in the post before it. I was so lazy to care about grammars.) (I almost said sorry. . but i dont need to do that i guess)