And She's Ready to Fly Away

Bismillaahi,

Caterpillar in the tree

How you wonder who you'll be

Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might

Don't you worry, hold on tight

I promise you there will come a day

Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away

Flap your wings now you can't stay

Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away

We've been waiting for this day

All along and knowing just what to do

Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away

(Butterfly Fly Away : Miley Cyrus)

And She's ready to fly away, flapping her wings to reach and pursue all her dreams come true. Time goes by so fast, She was my little disturber, she was my partner in crime, she was my little sister and now she is strong, brave and bright. I can't say it is a goodbye, even if it is. I can still visit her as many as i want, i know i  am. Just the place and time which will separate us. Every baby bird will leave its nest, and so will she. Nothing i can do but give support. Face the world before your face ! You know and we all know, you can do well. Reach it, claps with a tight grasp.

I am so mellow now :( . The image of us getting older and will leave our house were only a spoken words before, but now we really have to do it. And you take your first turn. I love you as always even if i never say it verbally, but you know i really do. 

lalalalalala.. . . .

Now that I've lost everything to you

You say you want to start something new

And it's breaking my heart you're leaving, baby I'm grieving

But if you want to leave take good care

Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear

But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there

Oh, baby, baby it's a wild world

It's hard to get by just upon a smile

Oh, baby, baby it's a wild world

I'll always remember you like a child, girl

You know I've seen a lot of what the world can do

And it's breaking my heart in two

'Cos I never want to see you sad girl. don't be a bad girl

But if you want to leave take good care

Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

Oh, baby,baby ...

Baby I love you

But if you want to leave take good care

Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

Oh, baby, baby ...

(Wild World : Mr Big)

You know, the world out there is so hard, take care wherever you are. Dont forget to always be close to Allaah cause Allaah is the only thing you have while far away from us.

One morning in my Life

Bismillaahi,

Hulllaaaa. . .whats up alll ^^' /

I wanna tell something about this freaky morning. Fyi, ive been getting flu since two days ago and getting worse by days. T.T. . . la basa, tohuurun inshaaAllaah (knee down hands held high in front of face. . aamiin :D ). My dad always tells me this if i get flu. "Tiny nose got blocked, what a pity!" Errrrr. . . .who gave me this type of nose btw !! He's a kind of ignorant about this fact, if i did clone his noseeeeee. (_ _ #) lol . Even B told me with a sigh, "Why do you all has that kind of nose??" . Ok my nose my life, do you all has business in it ?? I know. .you are not. So leave my cute nose alllll aloneee !! ahahaha. This is given by Allaah ta'ala and i am so blessed that i still have it to at least. . .smell your fart. (yuck !)

I got an unusual text from a friend. Its written like this "What is love ?" Haha. . .with my eyes half opened at 4 am, I tried to read . . .welll. . .i didnt read wrong, its right. lol.

So, i replied with a hesitation. Heu. . .how i could answer such silly question if i also always wonder what love is :D. But here is my answer. . .

"Love is something that you can't force. To love has many reasons that makes it reasonless. It can be a disaster and also a blessing, depends on how you mean and use it. "

Haha. . .am i like an Edgar Allan Poe now?? :D Its so poetic, even i didnt really get the meaning :P . But after that i corrected and sent another text said i should say that and might be i  better said simply as i didnt know. haha. Cause ive mentioned about Poe, so here i copy you one of my favorite poem created by him. (Actually the only one i know. haha)

A Dream Within A Dream

Take this kiss upon the brow!

And, in parting from you now,

Thus much let me avow-

You are not wrong, who deem

That my days have been a dream;

Yet if hope has flown away

In a night, or in a day,

In a vision, or in none,

Is it therefore the less gone?

All that we see or seem

Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar

Of a surf-tormented shore,

And I hold within my hand

Grains of the golden sand-

How few! yet how they creep

Through my fingers to the deep,

While I weep- while I weep!

O God! can I not grasp

Them with a tighter clasp?

O God! can I not save

One from the pitiless wave?

Is all that we see or seem

But a dream within a dream? 

If i am not mistaking, it is about a love separation, and how he wish he could control Time, which in fact he cant. So he said to his self that maybe all is only a dream, , inside a dream

Ok Leave him, and back to topic. lol. In that such of morning, after getting an unusual text, i took a pill for my flu. Did you know whats happened to me after that ??? Ok i know you didnt know. . haha . I got an Allergy!! hiaaaaa. .  .>,< . . my face was almost as cute as Momo, my sexy fish i ever mentioned before. Fyi, She (I keep saying that she is a she not a he. . .although idk what is she. lol) has two big and round eyes which like almost out from her face. And i did be like that. haha. It was like ive just got a plastic surgery to make my cute tiny nose be sharper and pointed ! haha. It was itchy at first and getting bigger. Ewww. . .it was so baddd. But wish me get better soooon. amin inshaaAllaah. Ok, i must go now, i will tell other things later inshaaAllaah. :P

love,

My Little Secret

Bismillaahi,

Sometimes i feel it's really not fair for you.

I keep you in a jar inside a locked box.

If you cry, if you suffer, if you die. 

Nobody will know but me.

And i am wondering

Will you stay up high and patiently wait for the right

time, place, and chance

Could you bear the unfairness?

Could you stay forever and wait for me?

When nobody knows your name but me

When nobody knows you are there but me
When everything seems to be so not right

Is it my selfishness?

If you ask me why

i just wanna stop the questioning

and i wanna keep the best for the last

Could you bear the unfairness?

Could you stay forever and wait for me?

When nobody knows your name but me

When nobody knows you are there but me
When everything seems to be so not right

i just wanna stop the questioning

and i wanna keep the best for the last

Cause you are. . . .you are. . 

You are, My Little Secret

eaaaa. . eaaaaa.. . .:o

Art Frustation !!

Bismillaahi,

heuh. . .its been more than a week and i am still in business with my header. (Ok its not that long) haha. It might be not that kind of important, in fact i actually can randomly search in google, take header templates made by other bloggers, and use it as my header. But. . .i wanna have something more personal as my blog header. You know i said it my self, this is my own sky, if i were under others header creation. . .then i am not trully under my own sky. That's why i wanna make it my self. Logic reason, rite rite rite?? :D

It is really not that kind of easy for me. The more i try to obtain my ability in creating new header design, the more i make something childish! (Uve seen it from my previous post) haha. 

Seriously, it needs an art feeling and art is not my cup of tea . .T.T. . .heuh, i better take a dare to cook something hard (eg : fried rice, noodle) than doing it :D. . lol.

I will try my best, i still cant stop now or bumbum (my cat) and momo (my sexy fish) will laugh me. What i ask you all. . .is just please, pray for me. Pray that i wont be beaten down by my own laziness ! haha.

Ok. . .see you soon inshaaAllaah with my cute and most beautiful header (yuck !) :D

Note : Btw, please leave alone my right now header. Its amusing, i even dont know why its really not elegant. .lol . . .T.T. . 

Red Velvet Cake

Bismillaahi,

Do you think that i have missed something about that Rainbow cake? :P haha. . .dont dare to, cause i dont forget it :P . If We are talking about Rainbow cake, so there should be this glamorous cake ever !!

RED VELVET CAKE

Since the first time i dont have the intention to make them in one post, so that i make it in different posting. Then, please welcome the Rossy cakes below :p

They look delicious. . .ok i am drooling :D. Honestly, at first i was so curious. I though that they might put blood inside it. . .a bit scary at a moment.  .T.T. . (What is it ??. . i said scary after giving compliment. .haha) 

Btw, Red velvet has the cupcake version also :D

The role cake one !!

Even red velvet covered with chocolate !! oohh...myy

And even a pair of Red Velvet Shooooes !!! Can you believe that !

Haha . . i am kidding !! :P . .forget bout the last one :P.

Is there anyone who is so generous and want to give me some?? 

Eh. .Not the shoes. . but the red velvet cake ! O.o lol

Rainbow Cakes

Bismillaahi,

After the magnificent Macaroons, now i am goin to show you the fabulous cake ever!!!

pleaseee. . .welcomeeee. . .

RAINBOW CAKE !

OH reaally, i cant help falling in love with this colorful cake. It consists of some layers sometimes 5 sometimes 7. Red, Yellow, Purple, green, blue, pink, anyyyyything you want on it. About the first story of this rainbow cake, you all might have find it out from google, the recipe also. That's why i won't talk about that.

It also has some types. .and i will show you here. Btw, i took the pictures randomly from google.

1. Rainbow Tart layers

sooo cute, arent they ? :D Oh i wanna have it sooo badly, i have never tasted one but they said it has lemonade taste. Does it? O.o

2. Rainbow cake in a jar 

Ive never imagined before that we can make cake and bake it in a jar. But they did it really well and they look so beautiful as the tart one :D.

3. Rainbow Cupcakes

Even they make rainbow on cupcakes. . 

oh. . i am so sure now i want to eat it !

4. Rainbow Cake (Natural version)

May i say these ones are the natural version? I mean like they don't bake some different colors of cakes in different pan. But they put it at a one time. So that they make the rainbow layers before baking, not after.

Like this one below.

It's different, right? :D

I really wish that i could have it someday :D. 

Cute Kitties

Bismillaahi, 

They are so cute when feeling unsecured. Look at Yuni, He was so brave and Peyem....wew...he wanna run away. I laughed when watching Yuni's leg haha :D

My Headers

Bismillaahi,

Here are some headers that i would use in my blog but then i canceled and use one i use now. I know i know it looks chilidish. lol.

It looks cute. Cause i calceled using this one here, so i use it in my FB :D

Dont ask me, i also dont know why there are many flowers and. . .hmmm.. .a creature on the left. idk idea :D

i used it for a while, but then i found out it was the childish header i made. Like a kindergarten school wall. Right? lol . Actually i was just trying to show i was really under my own sky. .haha.

taraaaaa !!! Nothing is here :P. .actually these boxes are the basic form that i use to make header :P

By the way, My blog layout looks so simple and almost white. But that's actually what i want cause i see in other blogs they prefer to obtain the use of colorful fonts or banners and that makes their blogs look cute and i want it also lol. . .yaaaa....at least i am trying although mine is still too PLAIN lol

Sinta Bingung dan Ada Deh

Bismillaahi,


CerDak (Cerita Dadakan) dari Teman (eehhh. . .thats me >,<)
Ini salah satu karya teman gue. Gak tau deh, mau disebut cerpen ato apalah. Menurut gue ini bukan sekedar imajinasi, tapi lebih menjurus luapan kebingungan dari yang nulis.  Judulnya "Sinta Bingung dan Ada Deh". Dia bikin hanya beberapa menit tanpa bicara sama sekali. Cekidot hasilnya...

Pada suatu pagi hari yang cerah dan tidak berkabut, Sinta duduk termenung di tepi jurang dekat komplek perkemahan Sibunatung. Para pembina sudah memperingatkan untuk tidak mendekati area hutan belakang komplek perkemahan mereka karena berbahaya. Akan tetapi, pagi itu Sinta merasa kesal dengan salah satu temannya satu tenda yang merusak lampu senternya tapi tidak mau mengakui kesalahannya. Sinta pun lalu melarikan diri ke hutan belakang perkemahannya itu. Dan menemukan pemandangan menakjubkan dari tepi jurang.

Pikirannya menganga ke angkasa. Ditemani suara burung yang sayup sayup dari bawah jurang, Sinta mulai merasa mengantuk. Entah bagaimana bisa dalam keadaan marah tiba tiba dia mengantuk. Dia pun lalu tertidur dan tanpa sengaja, dia terperosot ke dalam jurang yang dalamnya lebih dari 10 km itu.
Ketika terbangun, dia tiba di sebuah daerah antah berantah. Sinta terkejut, dia tidak tersadar bahwa tadi dia terjatuh ke dalam jurang yang sangat dalam. Dan uniknya, tanpa luka sedikitpun. Sinta merasakan keanehan ketika melihat pemandangan di depannya. Ini bukan hutan lagi, tapi tepi pantai. Sinta pun tidak percaya dengan apa yang dilihatnya. Untuk membuktikannya, dia pun menutup mata dan mencoba tidur lagi. Ketika terbangu, ternyata dia malah berada di daerah bersalju. Bahkan ada beberapa beruang kutub dikejauhan.


Dia semakin bingung dan takut.


Kali ini Sinta coba berjalan menelusuri salju yang tebal. Dia merasakan benar – benar kedinginan. Tapi dia harus tetap berjalan karena Si beruang melihatnya dari kejauhan dan terlihat mendekat. Tiba tiba beruang itu berlari ke arahnya, Sinta sangat ketakutan. Hampir hampir dia berteriak lagi ketika terjatuh dan pingsan. Tak lama kemudian, dia terbangun, kali ini dia terbangun di daerah padang ilalang. Sinta semakin bingung dengan tempat-tempat aneh yang tiba-tiba dialaminya ketika terbangun. Sinta menangis dan menangis.

Air matanya entah bagaimanan menggenang semakin lama semakin banyak. Kemudian membentuk danau. Kaki Sinta tiba tiba menghilang dan berubah jadi ekor ikan. Dia berubah jadi ikan duyung. “Tidaaaaaaaak !!!” teriaknya ketakutan. Dia seperti tidak bisa bernafas dengan udara. Dia pun meloncat ke dalam danau air matanya sendiri. Ketika kemudian air seperti terguncang hebat. . . .

“SINTAAAAAAAAAA !!! BANGUUUUN !!!”

Pembinanya tampak marah dengan membawa seember air yang baru saja diguyurkan ke tubuh Sinta. Sinta terbangun dengan memeluk senternya yang sudah rusak. Dia merasa bingung. Ternyata dia hanya bermimpi.

Nah, bagaimana?? (idk :P)

Move Me to PLANET PLUTO !!

Bismillaahi,



This world is just too mean, don’t you think so ? Everything is measured by size, level, material, power, etc. Oh. . .we have labels! This world is SICK ! I feel like I don’t belong to this earth. I mean not the “earth” itself which makes things worse but the PEOPLE! Yeah. . .and how lucky I am so I be one of them. But of course I don’t blame Allaah cause I am part of them, just say, it’s part of my life exams.

I feel like so desperate when I can’t do anything since my basic instinct is something that I can’t avoid.  Sometimes I wish I were a vegetarian Vampire who eat only TOFU. I really don’t wanna hurt anything or anybody. You know people have power with their minds that they can do anything. And it is sometimes scary in some ways.

It’s ridiculous watching them from my kind (humans) doing . . .I said “ALL THE THINGS”. . .that they can do to win over something. Life is a race, and if you don’t compete in it, you might be one that would be the looser. Why can’t we more respect the process within than the result we would get? I mean, everyone is born with shortcomings and plus things at the same time.  Nobody’s perfect. . . .with the looks. . .with anything.

And I hate it when I am out there,  people look down on me like I am an alien with huge size. They don’t count my ability. Why if I do not care about my looks?? Will it hurt your self?? Or your eyes??? I know I am not skinny, then??

Oh. . . .please move me to Pluto ! It has the same luck as me, judged by size, judged by existence which makes it be kicked out from the Universe system.