My Only Hope

Bismillaahi,

I am in my top of worry about what the result i will get in the next  5 days. I keep counting the days along with my anxious thought. I always pray all the best for the 3 of us. But it also makes me make many and over and over SWOT analysis which i cant control as it becomes my biggest issue. It happens like that in my mind. "I have many shortcoming conditions, yet i have a confidence to say that there might be still some things that i could use to console and calm my own self ."  I feel like so lack of confidence :( .

Even mom said "I dont get that image that you would get it. Just dont be that down if you really dont get it. It would be another failure and i think you have got used to fail. . too many already." 

What she said was just like a smile thief. I feel so sad after listening to what she told me. At this kind of time, i need a support that will make me build a positive thinking. I know she was only trying to calm down and prepare her own self also that failure possibility is always there when we step out to reach a chance and we must receive it. She is like wanna say "Everythings gonna be okay and we will always get the best plan from Allaah ta'ala."

And far from all of this. B comes as a spirit booster. I almost never share many thoughts in my mind but he is like always understand the situation and simply say everything's gonna be ok, that Allaah will give me the best. That i just have to give all the best from me, keep praying, and the rest will be ok . . .

Yes. . .

And Allaah ta'ala is my only hope. . 

There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again

I'm awake in the infinite cold

But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

and pray to be only Yours

I pray to be only Yours

I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars

Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing

and laughing again

When it feels like my dreams are so far

Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray

To be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny

I'm giving You all of me

I want Your symphony

Singing in all that I am

At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray

To be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope